number B?

almost a month since i last blogged, lol and i dont really know what to talk about. so it means im going emo. Failures? yeah that sucks. What can i say bout the decision the coaches made, maybe i really suck. People questioning me, and i'll just have to force an answer. Like what the fuck la, i thought i would get over it, but NO! kanasai..-_- and worse, if it means that i have more time to study, then i rather not, cos im not taking that opportunity to study. Even worse, i've been clinging on to the hope that its still possible, but now, yeah.... so it really really sucks to be bald now..GROW HAIR GROW!and going schools sucks too, there used to be more meaning besides just studying, a committment, something i aimed and wanna achieve. its not that i wanna be sad, but i just cant help it..so you'll see me smile more often to drown that shitty feeling..haha just kidding la..i'll get over it.

okay, other stuff that kinda cheers me up, uh.. MY DAD'S SPONSORING FOR VOCALS!..finallly..
uh..i got a new guitar and the string kinda snapped the following day? new shoes?( i want more!)
sooo, whatsup this weekend?
DEAFCON?
uuuuhhhhhyyyyyeahhhhiiiiidddddddoooontttttttttknnnnnoooooowwwwwwwww..

WHAT CAN I SAY!?

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Till your heart stops beating,

All out, rather than regretting. Its all up to the coaches now..

I compromise too much,

Life hasnt be that great these past few weeks, its been tough; disappointments, and all that crap. I dont feel right, it seems like im drifting away. Studies? yeah, much pressure from that shit. I go to school, sit down, getting ready for assembly, and all i see are faces that says : " what the fuck am i doing here?" It really gets quite pointless once we're all in this stage, studies?? only that? yeah, thats what my parents think. And it seems that everyone has an aim, and i'm just following. Rugby, just a few more weeks. Now it's starting to seem that silence would be better. I'm like sidetracking from every shit that i've committed to. Smile ken, SMILE!!!

You made this choice,

I'm not selected for the upcoming rugby tour. I can't say it's very suprising, but it was rather disappointing. Not for me only, but others too. I cant help feeling down, seeing others so discouraged and some how demoralized. And it applies to me too. Today's friendly against SJI, I gave my all, i believe. and i was confident of the selection. but it proved me otherwise. This setback.. i'm gonna say that, its not gonna bring me down, but make me work harder. I believe that theres still lots of hope, according to romano, who made me feel much better. 100% committment. still around 3 weeks to the final selection for B'div 2008. We can do it, wilson!

I can't wait,

I'm wandering, just a few more days.
I've got to give it all'.
Every year, it's the same mistake, same regret.
Smack me.

We all want to be great,

Its 2008, and thats what i keep telling myself. It's 2008, a very important year. I'm not gonna repeat mistakes made last year. I'm gonna improve in vocals. I'm gonna train, and be fit. I'm gonna study hard, and score good grades. I'm gonna be a better friend. I'm gonna make more friends! I'm gonna be a better son. I'm gonna attend training consistently. I'm gonna make it to B div. I'm gonna help old people cross roads. lol. Yeah, and every year i make this resolutions and never tend to stick to it. But maybe this year's different, i might actually get it done. Yes.

Today, skipped school/overslept. Went for training. It was tough, doing fitness and running like mad dogs under the rain, getting drench and running was fucking cold. Did other stuffs, and played a game. Washed up, ate and went home. It was tiring, but i tend to get a feeling that at least i accomplished something, and it felt good. Tomorrow im attending lync with elisha.

And now im gonna slack, and watch teev. And not move, lest i get fucking cramps.
Great day, Great feeling, Great friends.